Standing and Knocking Without a Door with Christian Musician Lg3
“Knock and it shall be open. Seek and ye shall find” (Mathew 7:7). But just like my song says: Sometimes “I can’t seem to find the door in the mazes of my mind. That there’s only one problem when I try to knock. . . I can not find the door. That there’s only one problem when I try to knock. . . That I’m standing without a door.” I know I am supposed to pray. And I do. But unfortunately, there are times when my head is so clouded with stress and commotion that I can not seem to pray properly. I can not find peace. I can not seem to find a connection to the Father. So I listen, Seek ye shall find.
Those are times when I just want to hug from Jesus or at least just a clear reassuring word that everything will work out ok. But unfortunately, I don’t get one. I just continue to play the same issues in my head over and over and over again. Throwing up half hearted prayers filled with doubt and unbelief.
That is why I penned the lyrics: If you can walk on water and you can raise from the dead, please walk on over and bring some peace inside my head. I also refer to the battlefield of the mind. For truly it is. It is a battle of believing what the scriptures say and resting in God’s promises verses listening to what the world and my circumstances are screaming at me.
I believe this song voices how so many of us feel when we are faced with circumstances beyond our control. We throw up prayers to God but beat them down with our unbelief before they get a chance to reach Him.
We know that James 1:6 says when asking of the Lord: “But let him ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man expect that he will receive anything from the Lord.” It is a hard truth but it is a principle that we must abide and live by if we say that we trust in the Lord. If we call ourselves Christians.
But I must be honest. Sometimes it is very hard to rely upon God and his goodness when everything else around me seems to be falling apart. There are times where I just feel like I am talking to myself.
That is why I wrote the lines. “Help me in my doubt my Lord. Help me in my unbelief. And “Lord that’s it! I submit. Is that what you want to hear? Lord that’s it. I submit to you, my unfallen tears.”
“Standing without a Door” is a cry from the heart. And I believe it is the answer to many of our problems when it comes to faith and prayer. We are to tell the Father honestly of our unbelief. We are to cry out and submit to Him. Casting our cares upon Him. Knowing that he cares for us (1 Peter 5:7) We can not walk in unbelief and expect to see the power and provision of God. It simply just doesn’t work that way.
So if you have ever tried to knock but felt like there was no door. Or that peace was not possible in the battlefield of your mind. Use this song as a way of screaming out to the father. As a way of confessing your unbelief in the hopes of receiving stronger faith in Him and also in your prayers. Cry out for peace. Cry out for answers. Submit. Submit to His will and His authority and you will find the peace, the truth and the power that you have been looking for.
Peace be with you!